belajar la untuk redha Nadhirah..

dear myself..
nadhirah.. belajar la terima hakikat.. belajar la untuk redha dgn sgale ape yg Allah tentukan..belajarla untuk melupakan.. belajar la untuk meninggalkan.. belajar la untuk menguatkan.. sekiranyer kau jatuh.. bangun.. bangun sendri.. jgn smpi ade yg hulurkan tgn.. kne bangun sendiri.. sekiranyer kau kecewa.. jgn putus asa.. truskan.. mungkin Dia ade sesuatu yg baek nutuk kau.. sekiranyer kau lupa.. cecepat la mengiatiNya semula.. yer kblakangn neh.. ak slalu rase putus asa.. x bersyukur.. maafkan hambaMU ini ya Allah.. tp setelah ak pikir2.. ak sepatutnyer bersyukur.. ak perlu bersyukur krn ade org yg lebih kasihan dari ak.. cube redha dgn ape yg Allah bg.. wat ever it is.. just say Alhamdulillah.. its not hard to say it.. thanks to Allah for giving you a chance up untill now.. there's always a chance to you to change to be better.. tp.. kau cepat sgt lalai nadhirah.. hariy2 yg akn mendtg neh.. ak akn practicekan.. untuk belajar terime hakikat,, belajar untuk redha,,belajar untuk melupakan.. blajar untuk meninggalkan.. belajar untuk menguatkan diri.. yes darl u have to work on it.. 

situ sana sini lerh....

okeh kalu da kate situ sana sini.. just assume that it will be many things that i'll gonna share.. ermm.. first of all at 24 hb 11 2011.. i took da jpj test.. then guess what... i failed.. kinda sad.. but i passed the motorcycle license.. i feel veryyyy eppy and proud of my self.. yy?? bcoz i used my own money to take both of the license.. hermm feel satisfied.. but i have to take again on the jalanraya test.. haha.. nobody failed it.. but i failed it.. 
       
okeh next one is.. errr..err.. i miss someone.. really miss that one.. but i can't say it.. only Allah know what i feel.. and i leave it to Allah everything about it.. coz i believe that Allah knows what is the best for me.. dear Allah.. please send me the one who can bring me to da right way.. i didn't say that i already lost.. just the one who can promise to bring me to heaven.. mksud nya.. seorg yg mnjanjikan boleh bwk sayer msuk syurga.. huu.. eh..eh.. neh da kes laen la.. tp ustaz ckp.. yg belum ade pilihan hatiy neh la bgus wat solat istikharah.. so.. i'll do it when i'm ready for it..

 okeh next lagi la kan.. kurang senang dgn prangai manusia sekarang.. knape yer.. kbnykkan yg da dilrang senang cter haram.. manusia skunk boleyh kate ah standard ler tuh.. hey.. standard ape nyer.. u already disobey Allah.. think it carefully before u talk dear..and who do you think u are..?? hahha(petikan dari jars of heart) heee.. da bnyk jmpe da org2 neh.. tp nk tegur sayer pun x de la taw mndlm sgt psal agame.. but i will learn about it .. and u know what.. i kept thinking about something.. i already asked my dad to find a sekolah pondok which has a girl studying there,, insyaAllah after final exam for sem6 while waiting to graduate i'll be enter that school.. its not that i wanna show off or what.. just wanna share.. people please do pray for me..amin~~

n the last thing la for this nite.. at the end of sem6... i've planned to have rm5000 in my account.. not for shopping or the other "ping2".. i want to have it in case to continue my further study.. i'm not the one who always depends on my parents.. again it is not to show off.. i just wanna state that i like to do something own my own.. i will satisfied if i get something that i want on my own.. 

ow yae.. before i forget.. to all muslim.. slamt nyambut maal hijrah.. hijrah itu pengorbanan.. tanpe pengorbanan kiter x kan berada di mane yg kiter mahu.. hijrah x semstinyer hijrah tempat.. hijrahkan hatiy ke jln Allah juga satu hijrah.. but remember.. amalan mulakan dgn niat dari hatiy yg suci dan ikhlas .. hijrahkan diri untuk mencari kebaikan di dunia mahupun akhirat.. may Allah bless all of us..


p/s: i hope i will pass all my paper.. insyaAllah.. please pray for me too frens.. 

teringat . . . . . .

1) mntk no fon care baek.. bile x mau bg ditulis nya di atas buku..
2)bile disuruh telepon x mahu,then ckp ttp tunggu smpi di telepon..
3)bile da telepon,mak da marah surh letakn x mahu..
4)bile da borak2 suruh dtg hari esoknyer.. bile x nak pakse jugak dtg..
5)bile da dtg bg pulak dgr lagu minah tudung.. suruh dgr betul2..
6)bile suare kuat,kate dgr suare..senyum sorng2 mse nk balek umah naek basikal..
7)bile letih letak tgn ats bahu.. tp x marah pun.. sbb mcm pham tgh penat..
8)layan baek sgt.. tipu la kalu x cair.. bhahaha
9)ntah knape dingin melande.. hentak meja.. trus keluar,,tp bile jmpe lupe dingin tuh..
10)x makn bende manis..mne la tahu.. x ckp.. lame x kntek..tibe2 bngun tidw trus telepon.. mntk maaf..
11)then jdik mcm bese smpi la 2 hb 1 2010.. menangisi sepnjng perjlann..
12)tibe ari lahir,mendongk kelangit mengenagkn jnji yg diungkiri,, menahan tangis..
13)sejak ituh mnjdik lebih kuat.. lebih dewase.. sudaa cmpk kesemuanyer di dlm laut.. jauh2..
14)bile sekian lame,,ntah knape.. prasaan tuh bukn mkin ilang.. mkin bertmbh.. gagahkan hatiy mengusir kluar dari hatiy..
15)berikan la sekali je peluang tuk kecewa kn sbb da bnyk kali dikecewakan.. oleh org yg same....

kisah walaw weyh pulak larh ! ! walaw weyh ! !

Walaw weyh ! ! gara2 nk lepaskan diri sanggup nyer la blame owg laen.. heh.. apee laa.. even kalu kiter siasat2 pun mesti ade slh kiter jugak.. hey kwn ! kne la ngaku jugak.. jgn maen tuduh n tunjuk kat owg laen je.. awaq tuh x termasuk sekali ker ?? yer,, sayer pun x nmpk la kalu awaq pun same jugak kan.. but.. even bukan pun ,still x yah slh kan owg laen..herm.. tp kan.. sorry to say la.. sayer neh bukan yg lembut2 mcm dulu2.. sekarang neh sayer x pedulikan even u ARE my fren,. sbb.. sbb awaq pun same kan..kan..kan.. apee yg plkn aja sayer ialah.. even slh owg.. kiter still kne ngaku ade sikt la slh kiter.. sayer update neh pun bukan sbb nk slhkan sesape.. just x leyh nk cter ngan owg,, then lepas kat sini jer la.. n niat atiy pun sbb mmg suke2 je nk update.. bukan nk cter keburukan owg.. tp agk x puas atiy la sbb aslkn bole je nk slhkan owg laen.. pelik la manusia neh.. okeh now we go to the next part.. meniru..its okay wat.. but pandai buat pandai la tanggung.. evn i also like that.. what2..? haa.. bile sesame meniru sume suke hatiy... tp bile sesame tiru mrkh x sesame mula la berkate-kate.. bile sesame meniru suke atiy je.. bile owg mrkh lebih saket atiy je taw.. apee laaa.. tu la manusia.. cepat sgt berubah bile berade di bwh.. n kalu nk jujur.. x perlu hebah2kan.. nntiy boleh di salah tafsir jdik riak.. hermm.. dan ag satu kwn , awaq da ajar sayer untuk bercakap lebih trus trang tang tang,, heee.. x dek nk simpan2 ag.. mntak maap la yer.. tp jgn blame owg laen melulu sgt.. n jgn nk bengang kalu da mrkh sikit tuh.. usaha la lagi.. but fren.. pandai2 la nk idup.. jgn pertikaikan ape yg owg buat.. n ade pulak yh hipokrit jugak.. walaw weyh.. depan laki maen nk lembut selembut sutera.. but dlm bilik mne pegi selembut sutera pun i dont know la.. treat ur fren equally boleh kan.. mmg la sayer x rapat ngan awaq..owg laen pun awaq buat mcm tuh.. x baek.. tp at least snyum la skit kat sayer neh ha.. kalu daq2 laki x perlu suruh da bg snyumn pling manis.. jujur nye sayer cemburu sbb sayer pun kwn anda.. snyum la kat sayer jugak.. hee. :)) n last sekali.. sorry but i have to let it  i just wanna release sumthing so that i can breath peacefully.. :)) 

looking to da moon.. but there is no moon.. heh.. x de rezki deh ! !

another beautiful sky and cloud..
really love it..
really enjoy it..
even there's no moon.. but.. i've learn an experience 

this sir is really weirdo..
the one is JUPEM..
he is really weird.. :)) 

heee.. at 30 july.. i went to balai cerap.. in english i don't know.. who knows can tell me later.. heh..

wat a beautiful sky..
erk.. nope.. its a cloud..
thats wat sir zaiyad idrus said to me..
nice shot sir ! !

really enjoy it.. here take a look at the picture that have been snap by my lecturer.. the name is mr izzudin.. ngeee.. ;))

okay.. this one we're calculating and busy to find da location of the moon that is will be came out..
from the left sir zaiyad idrus.en zamri.. me.. hudha.. adnin.. sorry fara.. i didn't see u la..

P/S: thanks sir ! i really enjoy it even though there is no moon.. :))

bile mase sudaa smpi.. atiy pun akn kuat.. x de kisah punyer la.. :P

kinda weird .. don't know when.. it just come.. and i have the feeling.. which its.. it's about time nadhirah.. u have to make your heart strong.. just.. I've learn something.. which one is called a friend.. which one is not.. not to blame others.. maybe i'm not a good friends.. at least i've tried so hard to be a good friends.. if before this.. i was only think about your feeling too much.. and you?? when u said u wanted to go there,there and there,, i'll follow u.. but went i said i wanted to go here.. u just act like "do i care".. and also with that kind of eyes staring at me.. so i'll just give up.. because of what..?? because.. u don't wanna go.. there are also a times when i want that.. because i really love it.. but u said"no need.. the design is too old".. i am still did not care about it.. i know what u're doing behind me.. i know.. i know i'm not perfect as her.. not clever as her.. n i admit it that i am not a good friend.. but.. still.. u don't have to show it to me.. it hurt.. i know what u are talking about me.. is not that i'm not doing my work.. i will do my work.. so.. u don't have to act so that to show me u were working on it.. now.. i will not care about your feeling anymore.. u can just do whatever u want.. u can go everywhere u want.. its okay if u don't wanna talk to me.. its okay u don't wanna be my friend.. it is really okay.. it doesn't matter.. just i wanna to remind u my dearest friends.. now i'll come up with the new one.. insyaAllah.. with the strong heart.. and also.. i knew everything what were u talking about me.. and i'll just said everything.. it might be showed in the dreams.. heee.. i wrote this entry.. not to be hating nor to hating the dearest person.. i;ll just wanna wrote it.. heee...

wanna make my heart as cold as snow..
keep strong yah ! !

p/s: kalu submit kat teacher vasanthi mestiy best.. boleyh taw.. grammar betul ke slh.. past n present betul ke x.. ayt complex ke simple o standard.. rindu lak nak wat karangan Bi then teacher check.. thanks to u miss vasanthi.. i've got wat i aimed it..

takdir Allah ade hikmah nyer..

bnyk nyer bende yg ak lalui ari neh,.

eh,, xde la bnyk sgt pun..

just mule2 excited nak balek..

x smpi 10 minit ade excident..

tgk2 rupenyer.. ya Allah kawan ak..

tekejutnyer ak.. smpikan luluh je atiy neh..

dtg dekat dye.. dgr dye menangis..

scare automatik air mata yg cube ak thn..

mengalir dgn deras sekali.. ak bukan kesian..

ak cume sedih bile tgk keadaan dye..

ak hanye mmpu berkate"ya Allah selamatkan la kawan ku ineh ya Allah.."

hnyer air mate yg bsahkan pipiku ineh,,.

then kwn ak mrah ak"kalu ko nagis nntiy dye ag x kuat.. so jgn nangis.."

ak cube menahan diri dari trus menaglirkan air mate..

sememangnyer ak neh sungguh cepat mngalirkan air mate..

even ak suke bergelak ktawe.. 

tp hatiy ak neh lembut,..

rasenyer ak berjiwa halus..

dari situ jugak ak terpikir.. kalu ak jdik doktor mcm ne la ak nk rawat pesakit ak.

kalu ak tgk owg mcm tuh je..

air mate neh mmg automatik nk kluar,,

bwu la ak tahu knape Allah x takdirkan ak jdik doktor..

sbb x sesuia dgn diri ak neh,,

tima kasih ya Allah.. krn Kau lebih mengetahui ape yg terbaek untuku..

muge Atiqah dan ayhnyer cepat sembuh,,

entry kali neh.. just nak ckp yg..

ak perlu bersyukur dgn ape yg Allah da tentukan..

krn dye lebih mengetahui sgale-galenyer..

then dpt plak satu news gumbira..

insyaAlah nk pergi tgk bulan !

yeay ! ! thank sir ! ! really appreciate it ! !