belajar la untuk redha Nadhirah..

dear myself..
nadhirah.. belajar la terima hakikat.. belajar la untuk redha dgn sgale ape yg Allah tentukan..belajarla untuk melupakan.. belajar la untuk meninggalkan.. belajar la untuk menguatkan.. sekiranyer kau jatuh.. bangun.. bangun sendri.. jgn smpi ade yg hulurkan tgn.. kne bangun sendiri.. sekiranyer kau kecewa.. jgn putus asa.. truskan.. mungkin Dia ade sesuatu yg baek nutuk kau.. sekiranyer kau lupa.. cecepat la mengiatiNya semula.. yer kblakangn neh.. ak slalu rase putus asa.. x bersyukur.. maafkan hambaMU ini ya Allah.. tp setelah ak pikir2.. ak sepatutnyer bersyukur.. ak perlu bersyukur krn ade org yg lebih kasihan dari ak.. cube redha dgn ape yg Allah bg.. wat ever it is.. just say Alhamdulillah.. its not hard to say it.. thanks to Allah for giving you a chance up untill now.. there's always a chance to you to change to be better.. tp.. kau cepat sgt lalai nadhirah.. hariy2 yg akn mendtg neh.. ak akn practicekan.. untuk belajar terime hakikat,, belajar untuk redha,,belajar untuk melupakan.. blajar untuk meninggalkan.. belajar untuk menguatkan diri.. yes darl u have to work on it.. 

situ sana sini lerh....

okeh kalu da kate situ sana sini.. just assume that it will be many things that i'll gonna share.. ermm.. first of all at 24 hb 11 2011.. i took da jpj test.. then guess what... i failed.. kinda sad.. but i passed the motorcycle license.. i feel veryyyy eppy and proud of my self.. yy?? bcoz i used my own money to take both of the license.. hermm feel satisfied.. but i have to take again on the jalanraya test.. haha.. nobody failed it.. but i failed it.. 
       
okeh next one is.. errr..err.. i miss someone.. really miss that one.. but i can't say it.. only Allah know what i feel.. and i leave it to Allah everything about it.. coz i believe that Allah knows what is the best for me.. dear Allah.. please send me the one who can bring me to da right way.. i didn't say that i already lost.. just the one who can promise to bring me to heaven.. mksud nya.. seorg yg mnjanjikan boleh bwk sayer msuk syurga.. huu.. eh..eh.. neh da kes laen la.. tp ustaz ckp.. yg belum ade pilihan hatiy neh la bgus wat solat istikharah.. so.. i'll do it when i'm ready for it..

 okeh next lagi la kan.. kurang senang dgn prangai manusia sekarang.. knape yer.. kbnykkan yg da dilrang senang cter haram.. manusia skunk boleyh kate ah standard ler tuh.. hey.. standard ape nyer.. u already disobey Allah.. think it carefully before u talk dear..and who do you think u are..?? hahha(petikan dari jars of heart) heee.. da bnyk jmpe da org2 neh.. tp nk tegur sayer pun x de la taw mndlm sgt psal agame.. but i will learn about it .. and u know what.. i kept thinking about something.. i already asked my dad to find a sekolah pondok which has a girl studying there,, insyaAllah after final exam for sem6 while waiting to graduate i'll be enter that school.. its not that i wanna show off or what.. just wanna share.. people please do pray for me..amin~~

n the last thing la for this nite.. at the end of sem6... i've planned to have rm5000 in my account.. not for shopping or the other "ping2".. i want to have it in case to continue my further study.. i'm not the one who always depends on my parents.. again it is not to show off.. i just wanna state that i like to do something own my own.. i will satisfied if i get something that i want on my own.. 

ow yae.. before i forget.. to all muslim.. slamt nyambut maal hijrah.. hijrah itu pengorbanan.. tanpe pengorbanan kiter x kan berada di mane yg kiter mahu.. hijrah x semstinyer hijrah tempat.. hijrahkan hatiy ke jln Allah juga satu hijrah.. but remember.. amalan mulakan dgn niat dari hatiy yg suci dan ikhlas .. hijrahkan diri untuk mencari kebaikan di dunia mahupun akhirat.. may Allah bless all of us..


p/s: i hope i will pass all my paper.. insyaAllah.. please pray for me too frens.. 

teringat . . . . . .

1) mntk no fon care baek.. bile x mau bg ditulis nya di atas buku..
2)bile disuruh telepon x mahu,then ckp ttp tunggu smpi di telepon..
3)bile da telepon,mak da marah surh letakn x mahu..
4)bile da borak2 suruh dtg hari esoknyer.. bile x nak pakse jugak dtg..
5)bile da dtg bg pulak dgr lagu minah tudung.. suruh dgr betul2..
6)bile suare kuat,kate dgr suare..senyum sorng2 mse nk balek umah naek basikal..
7)bile letih letak tgn ats bahu.. tp x marah pun.. sbb mcm pham tgh penat..
8)layan baek sgt.. tipu la kalu x cair.. bhahaha
9)ntah knape dingin melande.. hentak meja.. trus keluar,,tp bile jmpe lupe dingin tuh..
10)x makn bende manis..mne la tahu.. x ckp.. lame x kntek..tibe2 bngun tidw trus telepon.. mntk maaf..
11)then jdik mcm bese smpi la 2 hb 1 2010.. menangisi sepnjng perjlann..
12)tibe ari lahir,mendongk kelangit mengenagkn jnji yg diungkiri,, menahan tangis..
13)sejak ituh mnjdik lebih kuat.. lebih dewase.. sudaa cmpk kesemuanyer di dlm laut.. jauh2..
14)bile sekian lame,,ntah knape.. prasaan tuh bukn mkin ilang.. mkin bertmbh.. gagahkan hatiy mengusir kluar dari hatiy..
15)berikan la sekali je peluang tuk kecewa kn sbb da bnyk kali dikecewakan.. oleh org yg same....

kisah walaw weyh pulak larh ! ! walaw weyh ! !

Walaw weyh ! ! gara2 nk lepaskan diri sanggup nyer la blame owg laen.. heh.. apee laa.. even kalu kiter siasat2 pun mesti ade slh kiter jugak.. hey kwn ! kne la ngaku jugak.. jgn maen tuduh n tunjuk kat owg laen je.. awaq tuh x termasuk sekali ker ?? yer,, sayer pun x nmpk la kalu awaq pun same jugak kan.. but.. even bukan pun ,still x yah slh kan owg laen..herm.. tp kan.. sorry to say la.. sayer neh bukan yg lembut2 mcm dulu2.. sekarang neh sayer x pedulikan even u ARE my fren,. sbb.. sbb awaq pun same kan..kan..kan.. apee yg plkn aja sayer ialah.. even slh owg.. kiter still kne ngaku ade sikt la slh kiter.. sayer update neh pun bukan sbb nk slhkan sesape.. just x leyh nk cter ngan owg,, then lepas kat sini jer la.. n niat atiy pun sbb mmg suke2 je nk update.. bukan nk cter keburukan owg.. tp agk x puas atiy la sbb aslkn bole je nk slhkan owg laen.. pelik la manusia neh.. okeh now we go to the next part.. meniru..its okay wat.. but pandai buat pandai la tanggung.. evn i also like that.. what2..? haa.. bile sesame meniru sume suke hatiy... tp bile sesame tiru mrkh x sesame mula la berkate-kate.. bile sesame meniru suke atiy je.. bile owg mrkh lebih saket atiy je taw.. apee laaa.. tu la manusia.. cepat sgt berubah bile berade di bwh.. n kalu nk jujur.. x perlu hebah2kan.. nntiy boleh di salah tafsir jdik riak.. hermm.. dan ag satu kwn , awaq da ajar sayer untuk bercakap lebih trus trang tang tang,, heee.. x dek nk simpan2 ag.. mntak maap la yer.. tp jgn blame owg laen melulu sgt.. n jgn nk bengang kalu da mrkh sikit tuh.. usaha la lagi.. but fren.. pandai2 la nk idup.. jgn pertikaikan ape yg owg buat.. n ade pulak yh hipokrit jugak.. walaw weyh.. depan laki maen nk lembut selembut sutera.. but dlm bilik mne pegi selembut sutera pun i dont know la.. treat ur fren equally boleh kan.. mmg la sayer x rapat ngan awaq..owg laen pun awaq buat mcm tuh.. x baek.. tp at least snyum la skit kat sayer neh ha.. kalu daq2 laki x perlu suruh da bg snyumn pling manis.. jujur nye sayer cemburu sbb sayer pun kwn anda.. snyum la kat sayer jugak.. hee. :)) n last sekali.. sorry but i have to let it  i just wanna release sumthing so that i can breath peacefully.. :)) 

looking to da moon.. but there is no moon.. heh.. x de rezki deh ! !

another beautiful sky and cloud..
really love it..
really enjoy it..
even there's no moon.. but.. i've learn an experience 

this sir is really weirdo..
the one is JUPEM..
he is really weird.. :)) 

heee.. at 30 july.. i went to balai cerap.. in english i don't know.. who knows can tell me later.. heh..

wat a beautiful sky..
erk.. nope.. its a cloud..
thats wat sir zaiyad idrus said to me..
nice shot sir ! !

really enjoy it.. here take a look at the picture that have been snap by my lecturer.. the name is mr izzudin.. ngeee.. ;))

okay.. this one we're calculating and busy to find da location of the moon that is will be came out..
from the left sir zaiyad idrus.en zamri.. me.. hudha.. adnin.. sorry fara.. i didn't see u la..

P/S: thanks sir ! i really enjoy it even though there is no moon.. :))

bile mase sudaa smpi.. atiy pun akn kuat.. x de kisah punyer la.. :P

kinda weird .. don't know when.. it just come.. and i have the feeling.. which its.. it's about time nadhirah.. u have to make your heart strong.. just.. I've learn something.. which one is called a friend.. which one is not.. not to blame others.. maybe i'm not a good friends.. at least i've tried so hard to be a good friends.. if before this.. i was only think about your feeling too much.. and you?? when u said u wanted to go there,there and there,, i'll follow u.. but went i said i wanted to go here.. u just act like "do i care".. and also with that kind of eyes staring at me.. so i'll just give up.. because of what..?? because.. u don't wanna go.. there are also a times when i want that.. because i really love it.. but u said"no need.. the design is too old".. i am still did not care about it.. i know what u're doing behind me.. i know.. i know i'm not perfect as her.. not clever as her.. n i admit it that i am not a good friend.. but.. still.. u don't have to show it to me.. it hurt.. i know what u are talking about me.. is not that i'm not doing my work.. i will do my work.. so.. u don't have to act so that to show me u were working on it.. now.. i will not care about your feeling anymore.. u can just do whatever u want.. u can go everywhere u want.. its okay if u don't wanna talk to me.. its okay u don't wanna be my friend.. it is really okay.. it doesn't matter.. just i wanna to remind u my dearest friends.. now i'll come up with the new one.. insyaAllah.. with the strong heart.. and also.. i knew everything what were u talking about me.. and i'll just said everything.. it might be showed in the dreams.. heee.. i wrote this entry.. not to be hating nor to hating the dearest person.. i;ll just wanna wrote it.. heee...

wanna make my heart as cold as snow..
keep strong yah ! !

p/s: kalu submit kat teacher vasanthi mestiy best.. boleyh taw.. grammar betul ke slh.. past n present betul ke x.. ayt complex ke simple o standard.. rindu lak nak wat karangan Bi then teacher check.. thanks to u miss vasanthi.. i've got wat i aimed it..

takdir Allah ade hikmah nyer..

bnyk nyer bende yg ak lalui ari neh,.

eh,, xde la bnyk sgt pun..

just mule2 excited nak balek..

x smpi 10 minit ade excident..

tgk2 rupenyer.. ya Allah kawan ak..

tekejutnyer ak.. smpikan luluh je atiy neh..

dtg dekat dye.. dgr dye menangis..

scare automatik air mata yg cube ak thn..

mengalir dgn deras sekali.. ak bukan kesian..

ak cume sedih bile tgk keadaan dye..

ak hanye mmpu berkate"ya Allah selamatkan la kawan ku ineh ya Allah.."

hnyer air mate yg bsahkan pipiku ineh,,.

then kwn ak mrah ak"kalu ko nagis nntiy dye ag x kuat.. so jgn nangis.."

ak cube menahan diri dari trus menaglirkan air mate..

sememangnyer ak neh sungguh cepat mngalirkan air mate..

even ak suke bergelak ktawe.. 

tp hatiy ak neh lembut,..

rasenyer ak berjiwa halus..

dari situ jugak ak terpikir.. kalu ak jdik doktor mcm ne la ak nk rawat pesakit ak.

kalu ak tgk owg mcm tuh je..

air mate neh mmg automatik nk kluar,,

bwu la ak tahu knape Allah x takdirkan ak jdik doktor..

sbb x sesuia dgn diri ak neh,,

tima kasih ya Allah.. krn Kau lebih mengetahui ape yg terbaek untuku..

muge Atiqah dan ayhnyer cepat sembuh,,

entry kali neh.. just nak ckp yg..

ak perlu bersyukur dgn ape yg Allah da tentukan..

krn dye lebih mengetahui sgale-galenyer..

then dpt plak satu news gumbira..

insyaAlah nk pergi tgk bulan !

yeay ! ! thank sir ! ! really appreciate it ! ! 

kadang2 ak terlupa yg....

kadang2 ak telupe ak da kat IPT..

kadang2 ak terlupe wawasan ak..

kadang2 ak telupe yg ak x spatutnye knangkan kisah lalu..

kadang2 ak telupe yg ak neh bukan kanak2 ag..

kadang2 ak telupe yg ak kne blaja sungguh2..

kadang2 ak telupe yg ak kne sabar..

kadang2 ak telupe yg azam ak untuk ape..

kadang2 ak telupe yg ape yg ak nk dlm idup..

kadang2 ak telupe yg dia bukan milik ak..

kadang2 ak terlupe dia mnyintai owg laen..

kadang2 ak terlupe ape yg dia buat kat ak..

kadang2 ak telupe yg ak rase ak cinta kan die..

kadang2 ak telupe yg cintaku hyer sahih slps mmpunyai suami ..

kadang2 ak telupe yg gurauan ak x seindah yg sepatutnya..

kadang2 ak telupe yg dia mmg da lupekan ak..

kadang2 ak telupe yg ak sedih sbb dia..

kadang2 ak telupe yg ak perlu lupekan die..

kadang2 ak telupe yg lafaz cinta tuh ade lah sebuah janji...

kadang2 ak telupe yg ak da niatkan dari mula..

kadang2 ak telupe tuk mntk ampun dariNya..

kadang2 ak telupe yg malaikat slalu tgk ak..

kadang2 ak telupe jugak yg Allah sntiase perhatikan ak..

kadang2 ak telupe dan terlupe..dan terlupe..

kadang2 ak sedih sbbkan ak slalu terlupe.. ia sering mkn diri ku semula..

"Ya Allah igtkan la ape yg telah ak lupe..ak harap ak x lupe semu yg sepatutnya ak igt..amin" 

p/s: sume nyer gara2 terlupa.. dan terlupe...

WaWasAn seMesTEr 6 NaYa RoZeLL ..... :P

haaaa.. sejak bile ntah tringin nk ade wawasan.. mcm la mlaysia nyer wawasan 2020 nk jdikkan mlaysia negara maju kan,,

so mase semster 6 nntiy sayer nk jdikkan diri sayer maju.. hahha.. bgaimana caranyer n apekah wawasan sayer ituh.. hahha.. sayer namekan wawasan sayer sbg WAWASAN SEMESTER 6 NAYA ROZELL..

okeh.. wawasan sayer yg pertama ialah..

NAK JADIK BUDAQ BAEKK..

haaa...sbb sayer nk jdik budaq baekk la..nk .. xmo nenakal ag.. nk dgr ckp sume owg.. yg pling pnting babah n emak.. tuh yg pling pnting.. :))

okeh wawasan sayer yg kedua pulak,,,is..

NAK JADIK BUDAQ PANDAI..

haaa... sbb nk jdik budaq pandai neh.. sayer nk bangga kan parents sayer la of coz..n sayer x nak owg laen pndang rendah kat sayer.. bia sayer sndriy yg merendah diri.. perit rase bile diri dipandang rendah.. heee.. sayer nk dptkan dip klas pertame.. haa.. adeke?? ade kot.. kirenyer nk pat akj time sem 6 nntiy.. sbb  insyaAllah nk trus smbung deg,, kalu ade rezki...

okeh now we go to da third one..

NAK JADIK LEBIH MENDIAMKAN DIRI DARI BERKATA-KATA..

haaa.. sbb bg sayer mendiamkan diri dari berkata perkara yg x pnting tuh.. wasting time ajer la..n berkata bile perlu je kot .. sbb kalu asek nyampuk sane sini owg x suke deh...

okeh next ! !

NAK JADIK LEBIH MATURED LA PLAK KAN..

hermm... da sem 6 nntiy mesti la kne matang kan.. x kan asek nk mcm childish je kan..kan.. nk sebut kong kong cruch bebetul.. nk sebut cococrunch.... n nk pikir kan mase depan dgn lbih mndlm.. nk jdik lebih serious dlm khidupan.. sbb sir penah kate,, kalu idop x mo jdik mtang  ape ntah.. dye ade ckp.. tp sayer da lupe la plak... heee.. :p

again,., next! !

NAK JADIK LEBIH BERKEYAKINAN...

yg neh mestiy.. sbb nntiy nk carik keje kne la ade confident self yg tinggi.. bile owg tnyer jwb jer.. mcm sir pnah kate... yakin je ngan jwpn kiter even slh..n even bwu tahu sesuatu perkara.. ajar je owg laen ape yg awaq tahu., even seciput ane pun,... yg penting yakin...

okeh yg ke.. brape neh yae.last kot??hermmm..

NAK JDIK MCM BETTY LA FIA.. HEE.. JDIK CHANTEK LA.. BHAHAHA..

heee... sayer nk jdik lebih chantek di dr segi dlmn dan jugak luaran.. mcm x mingkin kan... but nothing is imposibble as long as u believe u can do it.. insyaAllah.. nk jdik chantek..kiut.. heee.. ngade kan.. nk kurus n turn myself jdik seorg yg mcm wardina safiyyah.. heee.. 

haaa.. takat neh..tuh je la WAWASAN SEMESTER 6 NAYA ROZELL..kalu ade lg.. akan sayer update ag yer... just mntk jasa baek sume doakan sayer berjayer mencapai WAWASAN SEMESTER 6 NAYA ROZELL.. huuuu.. even its sound weird n stupid.. i just hope that i can make it to mark all of my WAWASAN SEMESTER 6 NAYA ROZELL.. thats all.. insyaAllah.. amin~~

p/s: doakn wawasan ineh tercapai.. wait n see whether i can make it o not.. really hope that i can make it.. dear Allah please help me to make it n keep me strong untill i can make this wawasan become true.. ,, amin~~  

heeee.. yepp.. i wanna have my lesung pipi again....
i wanna have my sweetest smile again...
n if can i wanna win sumthing from sumone...

harap maklum la kepada tuan punyer diri..

anda di blog dr fb sayer sbb:-

-anda suke perasan status saya berkaitan dgn anda..

-ape la yg update sume anda akn terasa..

-saya x nak la anda berasa sedemikian lg okeh..

-anda tuh owg yg saya respect..

- x nk la anda pikir saya neh nk update sokmo psal anda..

saye rase anda tahu sape yg dimaksudkan..

n kalu anda bace blog neh..

bukan.. sayer rase anda mmg bace..

tlg la pham okeh..

sayer mmg hanye la respectkan anda..

sbb di mata sayer anda seorg yg bijak..

n bukan anda sorg saje yg sayer respect..

sayer mmg sukekan owg yg pndai sbb nk jdik mcm mereka,,

begitu jugak anda,,

saya igin jugak berjya seperti anda..

sayer sokmo selalu kaco anda..

adelah sbb bile da leyh msuk ngan anda..

mcm2 sayer igin tnyer..

mungkin soal agama..

mungkin tmpt utk saye meminta nasihat..

again.. bukan anda sorg sajer la..

ramai je lg owg yg sayer inginkn nasihat..

so.. jgn igt la sayer neh x matang..

sayer mntk maap sgt la kat anda..

andai anda terguris..

tp,, satu jer yg sayer nk anda tahu..

SAYER HANYELAH RESPECTKAN ANDA..

tuh jer.. 

n still tahu la batas2 nyer..

sayer jugak x mo la anda pikir mcm2 psal sayer..

just that.. i only respect people like u..

thats all.. not even more than that.. 

okeh !

:))

  p/s: tima kasih tuk segala nasihat yg sebelum2 neh.. jgn marah la sbb kali bebetul sayer tulis psal anda.. sayer x sebut saper anda.. kalu anda rase anda orgnyer.. sayer no komen.. sbb sayer x mentioned name anda pun.. really hope that u'll accept it open heart bout this thing.. sayer cuma x mahu anda pikir yg bukan2 psal sayer.. igt la.. sayer cuma respectkan owg mcm anda.. okeh.. n.. hope smpi sini je okeh anda?? sayer tahu anda jnis org yg mcm mane,, so.. hope u're really understand .. ;)) thanks a lot yepp... sayer blog anda adelah supaya kalu sayer nk update status.. saya buleyh update dgn senang atiy.. ;))

heeee.. :P

hakikat bahagia...

Bahagia itu dari dalam diri
Kesannya zahir rupanya maknawi
Terpendam bagai permata di dasar hati 

Bahagia itu ada pada hati
Bertakhta di kerajaan diri
Terbenam bagai mutiara di lautan nurani 

Bahagia itu ada di jiwa
Mahkota di singgahsana rasa
Bahagia itu adalah suatu ketenangan 

Bila susah tiada gelisah
Bila miskin syukur pada Tuhan
Bila sakit tiada resah di jiwa
Bukankah Tuhan telah berfirman
Ketahuilah dengan mengingati Allah
Jiwa kan menjadi tenang 

C/O :
Kebahagiaan itu suatu kesyukuran
Bila kaya jadi insan pemurah
Bila berkuasa amanah
Bila berjaya tidak alpa
Bila sihat tidak lupakan Tuhan 

Hakikatnya bahagia itu
Adalah ketenangan
Bila hati mengingati Tuhan 

Semua insan kan mengerti
Maksud terseni Ilahi
Itulah zikir yang hakiki

ya Allah.. aku akn bersabar.. kerana org yg bersabar akn mndpt yg lebih baek..

dan kata2 ituh telah terbukti di mataku..

muge bahagia yg aku alami adalah bahagia yg sedemikian rasanyer...

:))

p/s: song by UNIC.. sayer mmg suke lagu neh.. n sayer bukan suke sbb sayer tuh fav owg laen... 

ermmm.. today..

was a bad day.. kot..

x sangke gelak ketawe pd pg hariy..

upenyer x smpi ptg..

dulu..aku ade sorg kwn laki..

ak x rapat pun ngan dye..just ade la skali time tuh daq2 agkan..

kongsi la sesame saper yg kiterowg suke..

then the next year plak..

dye mntk no phone ak..

ak mlas nk bg.. ak just ckp la ak x hafal no phone ak..

then dye amik buku ak dye tulis no dye..

dye suh ak kol dye.. ak ckp la"tgk la cam ne nntiyt"..

then dye ckp"kol ak taw.. ak tunggu"..

ak gelak je la.. mlm tuh.. ak bia je dulu..

mlas nk kol dye kan.. da mlm sikit ak just miskol dye..

then dye kol ak pkai no rmah..

lame kiterowg borak2.. 

ak mmg anggp dye hnye kwn ak pd mulenyer..

tp..

lame2 dye layan ak baek.. dye mcm tahu segalanyer..

dye tahu kalu muke ak kne foundation..

dye la yg perasan mulut ak senget time snyum..

huh ! !

tp ak x de la nk prasan sgt kan..

hermm ..

makin lame.. makin baek je dye layan ak..

secare x sngaje.. ak da tersuke kat dye..wait just suke..

ak btaw kat sowg je kwn ak.. heee.. 

lame kiterowg kwn.. smpi satu ketike tuh kiterowg gdoh..

ak g la tmpat laen.. lame x kontek..

tibe2 satu hariy tuh ak tdow..ak mimpikn dye...

bngun tidow ak terus kol dye..

ak menangis mntk maap kat dye..

dye kate"ak x marah ko la.. ko neh sengal g nanges kenape?? hahahh"

strt from that day.. ak cter la mslh ak kat dye..

tp yg pling pnting.. dye taw kalu ak kol dye akn ckp"naper ko nk ngis?? sape yg wat??"

hahaha.. taw plak tuh.. heee.. dye pun ade cter kat ak psal fmliy dye..

mslh fmliy dye la.. time tuh dye bersungguh-sungguh ckp nk jdik laki yg baek..

ak gelak je la..

tp x lame pas tuh.. ak pat taw dye tikam ak dari belakang..

ape yg dye wat ak tuh sgt dan amt pedih sekali..

tp ak redha je la... dye penah jnji nk wish bile beday ak..

ak tunggu.. x semena air mate ak meleleh sbb tringt jnji dye tuh..

x penah pun dye wish ak smpi la taun neh..

ak berazam x mo la ngis psal dye ag..smpi skunk dye x wish pun besday ak..

ak add dye.. x de sbb laen slaen sbb dye kwn lame ak..

tetibe dye chat ckp cam neh"ko marah ak ag x??" then ak ckp la..

ak da lupekan sume2 psal dye.. sume da ak x igt.. 

"x kan x igt satuh pun psal ak..??" ak ttp ckp ak x igt..

then ak kate la"halalkan la kalu ade jni2 yg x tunai.. sbb ak mg da x igt.."

dye blas"okeh.. ak halakn..tp ade ag stu jnji ak igt.. ko kate ko nk tgk wyg ngan ak kan.." 

hahaha.. ko da wat ak saket atiy.. nk tuntut jnji cam tuh..

ak blas"mntk maap la.. ak x igt la.. hope ko halalkan"

dye blas"okeh ak halalkan.. x pe la kalu ko da lupe"..

x lame pas tuh. ak tgk dye da couple..

nmpk je cam tuh.. mak ai,, tnyer roomate ak la cam ne ak mngis pepagi bute tuh,,

ak cube lupekan dye.. tp x leyh.. ak selalu mntk kat Allah spaye buang dye jauh2 dari idop ak..

sbb ak da terluke sgt.. 

bile balek umah kalu nk kuar rumah je..mst ak berdoa..

"ya Allah jgn la bg ak terserempak dgn dye"

tp.. hariy niy Allah x mkbulkn doa ak..

Allah bg ak tgk dye.. ya Allah luluh atiy ak tgk dye..

ntah nape bile psal dye atiy ak mudah tersentap..

mungkin sbb lom mtng.. mse ak nmpk dye..

ak tunduk je..sbb ak rase ak leyh nk hadapan ngan dye..

"Ya Allah.. ak merayu.. jauhkan dye dari pandngn mate ku ineh..

da x larat da ak tgk dye ya Allah.."

kalu nk taw in detail.. mntk maap x leyh.. sbb its too personal..  

harapnyer.. ineh yg terakhir.. ak x mo da ngalirkan air mata ak tuk dye..

sir ak pnah kate.. "air mata yg pling  berharga ade lah air mata krn Dia yg maha berkuasa.."

i'll keep it my mind ur word sir...

p/s:cter neh mmg susah nk paham.. hnye yg tertentu je yg leyh paham.. heee.. :))

     n ag satu... BM ak time spm A-.. so ayt pun tunggang langgang jugak la.. :))

     may Allah bless all of u.. thanks for read this uninterested entry,,

     (@-@)

      

pengalaman penting neh.. tuk mase depan..

adoi yai. ..ri niy ak start keje.. di mane..?? tuh sume rahsie.. sape yg da taw.. bgus la.. yg x taw tuh.. x yah la taw k.. huuu... mase memula smpi.. blurr sgt.. x taw nk wat per.. sekali muncul la mizz diah.. dye ditugaskan tuk tunjukkan ape keje yg perlu dilakukan.. sekali dye ckp "okeh nad awaq tahukan keje awaq ape..??awaq akan jdik cashier..".. mak ai.. da ler x penah keje.. da tuh bg lak cashier..
terima je la.. heee.. then dye perkenalkan staff2 situh.. pastuh.. mula la detik pelajaran tuk jdik cashier.. susah jugakk... maybe sbb bwu ag kan.. tlg2 sikit2 ape yg ptot.. mizz diah is always stay beside me.. thanks to her.. she being nice to me.. i like her,, ;)) at 3:50 my break time.. so balek umah la mkn.. smyg zohor.. even lmbt.. tunai ttp tunai... da siap2 nk masuk kul 4:40.. msuk plak asar.. smyg dulu la.. tkot nntiy x tersmyg lak kan.. pas smyg trus gerak semula.. smpi je saner,, opsss ter"awal la plak.. excited nk keje,,huhu.. so lepak la dulu ngan mizz diah..


ptg tuh ramai plak customer.. so sbb x pro ag jdik cashier.. keje la jdik tukang amik pinggan.. suke kerje tuh.. bnyk jln.. ane taw silap2 ariy blan leyh kurus.. hakhak.. leyh ngorat SM.. hukhuk.. mase jdik tukang angkt2 pinggan neh yg bnyk dugaan ,, mule2 ade negro neh.. dtg ngan lngkp sut putih.. trus tnyer in BI.. hek dye.. mmg la nk speaking balek.. tp tgk ade daq2 melayu.. tkot plak dyeowg kate poyo je.. ag pun teacher pnah ckap"nadhirah.. u donno how to speak.. but u know how to write"huu..  so.. dye tnyer..jwb je la.. pastuh dye start tnyer bebnyk da x pham da.. nseb baek ade abg neh lalu.. dye nk tegelak tgk situasi tuh.. dye tlg la.. ckp ngan negro tuh.. selamat la .. yg kedua.. kne mrah ngan daq neh.. mane la taw kalu keje angkat2 pinggan neh sudu and garfu sndriy kne bsuh and lap.. dye mrah cmne.."nih sume sape nk lap neh..?? naper x bsuh,.. neh sume bukan keje cashier.." waa~` sgt  dan amt nk nanges.. bese la.. i neh kalu kne mrah mesti nk nanges.. tp,, alhamdulillah Allah kuatkan atiy hambaNya yg lemah neh... lpas kne mrah trus naek atas wat keje balek.. dgn azam kul 9 nk balek.. huhu..


akhirnye kul 9 jugak... cpat2 siapkan pe yg tertinggal.. punch card then balek,, mase balek singgah kdai beli air 100 plus.. x ckup..smpi umah suh adeq g beli botol besar nyer,.. minum sbb nk tnage..bhahaha.. bukak2 kasut je.. pucat kaki.. mcm x de darah..saket dye.. mak ai.. lpas mndiy siap smyg isyak.. tidow kjap je.. pastuh fara kol.. huh.. cter la kat dye... dye gelak je.. huuu.. tp tu la.. bukan senang nk carikk duet.. and susah gak kalu kne keje bwh owg..


Ya Allah..please keep me strong untill i resign.. huu..
please protect me ..
tlg la lembutkan atiy ku ineh.. sejukkan la atiy ku ineh ya Allah..




p/s* harap dpt beri khidmat yg terbaek dan bgus.. heee.. mntk2 sumenyer berjln lancar,,, in the same time.. i miss sumone..

i don't understand you la.... herm.. ape daa..

 x paham la naper la manusia neh kan.. suke jge epi kain owg laen.. yer i admit sumtimes i also like that.. but jgn la lelebih.. x semestinyer ape yg i suke u suke rite.. then.. its up to me la.. wat i like o dislike.. that is nothing gonna with u la.. yepp.. have u listen to da "rambut same itam hatiy lelaen". everyone know bout it.. its okay dokay if u don't like it.. there's a time i kept following bout u.. sumthing that i'm stalking u la.. but i've never mentioned anything pun kan if u dislike anything.. but why.. when it comes bout wat i'm doing.. u wanna know.. why?? why would u wanna know bout me.. ape laaa.. kalu da tahu i suke ape ke.. x suke ape ke.. thats me.. not u.. i'm getting sick bcoz of u.. i already stop from following u like a stupid girl.. so.. u don't have to worry.. coz i;m not going to know wat ever happen to you.. so i hope u'll do understand wat i really mean..

u don't like it..
then u can tell me..
straight to da point..
or else..
it will end up..
i'll be hating u..

sekadar selingan..

✖ Jangan mencintai setinggi langit kerana langit akan runtuh ✿

✖ Jangan mencintai sedalam laut kerana laut akan surut ✿

✖ Jangan mencintai dunia kerana dunia akan hancur ✿

✖ Jangan mencintai bunga kerana bunga akan layu ✿

✖ Jangan mencintai manusia kerana manusia akan binasa ✿

✔ Cintailah Allah Yang Maha Kekal,Maha Bijaksana ✿

UNIC hanyut,, listen la even da lame pun.. yg da lame neh la kne igt2kan,..

faham2kan la lirik nyer yer..]
hayati bebetol..
nntiy x pham susah plak.. ;))




Cipta dari segumpal darah,
jelma seraut wajah,
rahsia agungnya kudrat Tuhan.

Dan dihembuskan nyawa,
diikatkan janji,
tunduk hanya kepadaNYA.

*Namun hakikatnya hidup sarat pesona dusta,
dugaan tuk menguji kehambaan,
tiada tempat berlindung dari fitnah dunia,
selain perlindunganNYA.

Berkurun terukir sejarah alpa,
manusia dihanyut indah yang fana,
terlupa pada fitrah wujudnya,
hanya ditaraf hamba.

Tenggelam pada bisikan dunia,
tak sedar langkah mu di ke sengsara,
tergoda pada hasut sengketa,
rebut fatamorgana.

repeat (*)

Telah disuluhkan laluan,
diberi segala pedoman,
seiring akal dan fikiran,
mengapa kehilangan.

Telah tertulis pengakhiran,
pada selembar takdir insan,
jiwan yang penuh penyerahan,
Itu yang dijanji syurga.

repeat (*)
Rebut fatamorgana 3x 

u-n-i-c
(u and i see)
(see what..)
(think baout it urself)

kegilaan sewaktu kecilku smpi la sekarang,,, ~~all about stars~~ heee.. n-n

hurm.. tdiy jmpe la lecturer.. nk blaja survey.. sbenyr.. x rancang pun.. tetiba mereka ajk,. mule2 x mo g.. bile dowg kate pas jmpe balek.. trus follow je la.. mlm tdiy tidow lmbt.. konkrit techno la.. heee.. memule jmpe la en ibrahim.. tnyer la memacam.. that time i'm  giving a 100% focus.. hee.. pastuh jmpe la plak mr.muhd izuddin mahmood.. tnyer la memacam jugok.. fokus ttp fokus.. mklum la da lpas tension kat sesawah pepadiy kan.. hakhak.. seronok blaja tdiy.. hee.. mesti mcm x msuk je kan title kat ats ngan ape yg sayer nk cter neh.. heee.. lek lu.. pas tuh jmpe la en saiful hadiy.. haa.. waktu ni la.. tetibe tringt cita2 sewaktu kecil ku.. hee.. :))

shantek kan..
give thanks to Allah for the beautiful view
n-n

start nyer tringt sbb en tuh ckp psal ade student yg ikot mereka g balai cerap kan.. sian kat sayer kne tinggal.. sayer tnyer la kat en saiful"ade ape je en kat sane'? then dye jwb la"tgk ank bulan" owh.. that time la tringt trus kalu tgk bulan mesti ade bintang.. heee..  kalu ade bintang mesti kaitan ngan astronomi x lari kan.. heee.. sayer tringt la.. mase darjah satu sayer nk sgt jdik doktor.. ituh ade la cita2 sayer yg pling lame.. mse form1 sayer nk jdik ahli astronomi.. sayer sgt suke kan ilmu2 astronomi.. sbb babah kesygnku sokmo akn roger kat sayer kalu ade tahi bintang ke.. gerhana ke.. mesti dye akn roger and out kat sayer.. sbb dye tahu sayer sukekannyer... up untill now babah sentiasa akan roger.. :)) sayer pun join la kelab astronimi kat essemkay kepong.. hee.. ade satu mlm tuh mereka wat function tgk bintang la kan,, sayer ngan semngt nyer dtg la berkobar-kobar.. org yg dtg tuh bukan la ahli astronomi.. akn tetapi beliau sgt berminat akn ilmu astronomi.. heee.. beliau dtg la bwk tropong2 beliau yg besar2 tuh..

colourful.. :))
sgt dan amt shantek..

sekali tgh dye terang2kan.. satu rahmat Allah tlah trun.. iaitu hujan.. adoi yai.. agk kecewa sgt time tuh.. ye la sanggup dtg memlm sbb nk tgk last2 hujan.. so jdik la dtg dgn harapn,pulang dgn kekecewaan.. mungkin ade kot hikmah nyer kan.. heee.. tp sayer x stop sukekan bintang2 ituh.. tiap kali balek kg.. msti duduk kat luar dgn babah.. cter2 mslh ngan babah.. tnyer la psal bintang ke.. tp sayer sgt berminat kalu bab2 tahi bintang.. heee.. :)) pernah satu hari tuh tgh duduk2 sekali kebetulan plak.. sayer secare x sngaje..nmpk ciptaanNya yg sgt cntik.. tahi bintang warna ijau melintas ats langit.. waa~ sayer trus ckp kat babah sayer.. dyer gelak je tgk "keexcitedtan" dpt tgk.. huuu.. sgt cntik.. sbb en saiful hadi bukak cter.. sayer sgt tringt akn kegilaan sayer neh..

sayer sukekan bintang.. smpi sekarang sayer sgt sukekan bintang.. sayer sukekan bintang lebih dari sayer sukekan kapal terbang.. :)) heee.. point sayer kat sini ade la.. bintang2 ade la kegilaan sayer dr kecil smpila sekarang.. nk jdik ahli astronomi tuh.. x pe la.. will let it go.. tp bila da ade duit.. beli je teropong besar2 tuh.. haa tgk tiap2 mlm ag puas.. heee..

tp aim sayer sekarang ini ialah nk jejakkan kaki kat al-kawarizmi yg kat melake tuh.. dok je melake.. tapi x sampai2 ag.. huuu.. insyaAllah akn sampai mase cutiy sem akn dtg neh.. :))

masih belum terlambat... betul ker..? so kne la cecepatkan nyer.. :))

it is not too late for me to back to that sraight way..
yes.. i do know.. there's a couple times i try go back to that sraight way..
but.. its only just for a while.. that's not suppose to be just a while..
it must be forever,,
yea.. i wanna change myself to better than what i am now..
but.. i can't do it all at the same time..
i need to do it slowly.. and also have time to take ..
there's a time i feel so scared.. scared to face die..
i'm so scared bcoz there's a lot of thing i haven't done it..
there's a lot of things i haven't pay..
there's a time i felt no ready yet.. yes.. i'm not ready to die..
yes i knew it..there's a change in myself..
even not as much.. maybe it will become much from time to time..
o will fully have it..
if can, i wanna sumthing like sutera kasih..
there are so many thing that i,ve done.. a lot of things..
maybe people will say i;m "bajet je"..but its all up to u guys.. its only me and Allah..

my max chang min.. huuuu.. waaa~~

:))
Stage Name: Max (Choi Kang)
Real Name: Shim Chang Min (심창민)
Position: Vocal (Tenor)
Age: 19/20 (Western/Korean)
Birthday: February 18, 1988
Birthplace : Seoul
Education: 2nd year university student
Height: 186 cm
Weight: 61 kg
Blood Type: B
Hobbies: Games, singing, reading and listening to music
Special Ability: Singing and dancing
6th Annual SM Best Competition - Best Singing 1st Place & Best Artist of the Competition

max chang min..
:) good oppa's..

huh ! !
no komen la..
hoooooo..

here's sumthing bout my choikang...

An aquarius born in 1988, his blood type is B. Is greedy when it comes to music, so sometimes cries when he isn't satisfied with his singing. Because his parents are teachers, he is also very competitive and tries very hard at schoolwork and reading. Though the youngest in the group, he is the most modest and has the deepest thoughts. Can be honest and blunt when he strongly believes that something should not be done. Though shy at first, he is a very bright boy when you get to know him well. Followed his friend to an SM contest and luckily won the Best Singer award. 

ChoiKang Changmin, whose high note is outstanding 

The youngest of our group Choikang Changmin is a crybaby. When his singing goes wrong he cries. But he has a brave side to him too. Starting from elementary school in 6th grade, he delivered newspapers as a part-time job. Changmin is the youngest in the family and group but noone can complete against his singing. His high note is so outstanding that he doesn't know what octave it goes up to. He says that hes worries that if he knows it might interrupt his singing. Changmin is a quiet person and doesn't talk very much. In an interview, he only says 2 or 3 things in the end. Changmin is a clear person who reads the Harry Potter Series and tells everyone about it. He particpated in a singing contest and won an award. That led him to be a singer but before that he was regular student.


but now he still with tvxq.. but only  two members.. chang min and u-know only.. the other were leaving the group because that lee soo man.. hoooo.. :))