it is not too late for me to back to that sraight way..
yes.. i do know.. there's a couple times i try go back to that sraight way..
but.. its only just for a while.. that's not suppose to be just a while..
it must be forever,,
yea.. i wanna change myself to better than what i am now..
but.. i can't do it all at the same time..
i need to do it slowly.. and also have time to take ..
there's a time i feel so scared.. scared to face die..
i'm so scared bcoz there's a lot of thing i haven't done it..
there's a lot of things i haven't pay..
there's a time i felt no ready yet.. yes.. i'm not ready to die..
yes i knew it..there's a change in myself..
even not as much.. maybe it will become much from time to time..
o will fully have it..
if can, i wanna sumthing like sutera kasih..
there are so many thing that i,ve done.. a lot of things..
maybe people will say i;m "bajet je"..but its all up to u guys.. its only me and Allah..
there's a time i felt jealous and dengki to others..
honestly i have that in myself..
but.. i always try to get that out from myself..
i try as mush as i can to change myself..
yes.. i know i'm not a good girl..
and i really know that..
i will try to change myself.. while Allah give me a chance to change..
but why i did not appreciate that??
why??
i also try to do everything that Allah asked to do for a long time ago..
but.. why i can't do that?? why??
dear Allah.. i'm so scared.. please show me the way..
what if i die before ask forgiveness from others,my fmliy,my parent and Allah..??
but.. i will try to change myself..but first i must change my heart first..
make sure i really did that bcoz of Allah..
there's so many i've done..
i wanna be better than what am i rite now..
i will try.. slowly..
yes..yes..yes...
i wanna be better.. i wanna change myself to be better..
even not as much.. at least a bit pun its okay rite..
dear Allah.. please keep me strong.. i will try da best to do everything that Allah said have to do..there's a song" make da best of ur health..before u sick.. make da best of ur life.. before u die.."
i will try slowly.. even not as much.. at least a bit by bit pun that's okay..
as long as we live.. there's a time we to taubat..
, insyaAllah..
listen to da song sutera kasih... the song that i already adde to my blog.. :)) n-n
p/s: dear readers i wrote this based on wat i'm feeling rite now.. maybe tomorrow i'm not same to what i'm feeling rite now.... if u all need to remind it to me.. please remind me.. heee.. :)) i will try slowly.. but start from inside of myself..
please do support me.. :)) thanks..
salam......
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| may Allah give me sumthing like sutera kasih.. really hope it.. aminn ~~ |
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